It make sense

hello there..good morning.
today gonna stay at my bf's rent house before he go back to his house for a week! last week i cant stand being apart from him for three days..and now 1 week? and it will come the next..our semester break..1 month?
God, please keep me strong.


I went through some of my friend's blogs. My old lost cantact friends that i just can know their updates through their blog. Actually i dont really have interest to contact them as i dont really want them to know about my changes, my 'rapid changes'. I became sick of their writing, too much of cursing. Im sorry for saying this. I know you guys got rights to write whatever you like. but with those cursing words, its really making me sick. I can stand for maybe one or two..or some but at 'necessary' parts (i curse too) but not like the entire of the writing. It seems like the whole writing is using the cursing words. and when you are a girl..it make it WORST.

I chat with my guy friends before and most of them hate to hear girl cursing. Yeah, i dont really care what they said. but it make sense. Just imagine a girl talking about two minutes and we can hear more then 8 words of cursing. Its annoying for anyone to do that and disgusting for a girl. i cursed too before. not so frequent bu i did. After some of my friends advised me to not cursing too much, i do. I still curse but not much. Not like at every end of sentence we have to put the cursing word. Duh~ seriously, im sick with such people, more precisely..with such girls.

Mabe some of you not agree with this, but common, its my thoughts. Anyway, its make sense right?

I am a loyal reader of some blogs. Some very interesting blogs. Using a good language to describe their life. Very attracting words and way in delivering their thoughts. I love such writing. Its inspiring and...no cursing.

Art of Wondering

hello there..

I woke up early yesterday. haha. As i had not finish reading my notes for my test in the morning. after about half an hour i done reading, im not even memorizing, i just understanding it. I guess its enough. yeah.but i can answer the test. just i dont really confident that my answers will satisfy my lecturer..grr~haha. The subject is very new to me. At least i felt a bit lighter after the test. and i got another midterm test next week for Psychology..hee..im nervous! i aiming for 4 flat this semester as i only take two subjects and both not involving any calculation. God~ i just wish my entire course subjects are not involving calculation as I am very sucks in numbers.

i Love psychology. This subject had really stole my heart.hee. but, still cant stop me from sleeping at the classes.haha..i already read the text before entering the class. Listen to the lecturer repeating the things i already know is making me sleepy .hehe. We got no quizzes for course mark, all replaced by 3 movie assignment..let me do some highlight here..MOVIE assignment. Isn't that fun??!Watch the movies and answer the questions given??maybe i not answering correctly but at least i have fun with it. And doing things with interest always help we understand and memorize more!

and i have another new interest ..which is Philosophy..i borrowed a text book from the library-Philosophy, Introduction to the Art of Wondering. and have some reading on it on my free time. yes, it make me feel good. reading it a little bit making me understand some of the action i or other people taking in life. why some things that we dont even understand how can happen. its kind a surprise to know that sometime we actually dont even undertsand why we doing things that we doing. Its a fun reading~both psychology and Philosophy.

it makes me feel good~

All I need is to be with you.

I am missing my bf.
We used to be very very close. and its kinda hard to be apart from him even for a while.
He went back to his hometown. Only for three days days. but its enough to make me feel terrible.

I had been in many relationships before, but with him, its not the same.
One of my friend said, "you had found your Mr. Right, do you?" Yes, I do.

He is what you look for in a guy.

I love you.

'stomachache'

Hello there,

I am in my period right now. and I think period pain is a usual thing to happen at this time.
But that is not what I want to tell you. I just want to share some childhood memory here, ermm..can I say that childhood..maybe.

I still remember when i was 14, i was having a very bad stomachache. I really have no idea what it is. and i cant think any way to relief the pain. I used to be a person who dont really share anything with my siblings. so at the moment, i dont think my siblings at home can do any help. i keep rolling and rolling on my bed as the pain is getting worst and worst. I have this one mind set, which i think was set by my family condition, where i always believe that any pain i have will cure or heal if i fight it-yes, without medication, i always have the belief that it will heal. but the pain not getting better. and the moment, the person that i keep thinking of is my mother. when she will come back. she must can help. she always got the way. it was long before i heard my mom's car. yes! my savior is finally here! then i ran outside the house. open my mom's car( she dont even got the chance to get out from the car).. i told her."mom..my stomach is aching.."

My mom looked at me with silence. she stared at me for a while like she is thinking for something. then she said:" go get panadol(paracetamol) and eat it" thats all. i really have no idea. i obeyed her. and.. taadaa~~!like magic.all the pain gone! yeah!..

then my mom asked me. "is everything ok?"
haha..of course it did.

i really thank my mother that time. but i just dont know how to speak it out.


This happened long long ago.
i dont know what the pain i had actually.
until few years after the incident i finally know, i was actually having my first period pain. and my mom already knew it at the moment i told her i was having stomachache.
she is my angel. she is my everything. she sacrificed a lot for us.a lot and too much for a normal woman.i love you mom.

urghh..i cant write long and with detail. because im having period pain rite now.i seldom get it..and this time i having it and remind me to the story.

ok then. i stop here.




~Emily~

I am Emily.

I wish i can start a new world here.
Far away from my real world is.
Where i live in my own Lalaland.
I just want to escape from the wold I've been living.
Where i can share my thoughts and all the burdening stuffs on my shoulder here.
Where i cant do so in the real world.
Where people never understand you.
Where all the people you thought suppose to understand you, are not.
Where the person you love unlike you for being yourself.
Where you were scolded for telling the burdens you have.
Where the people thought you cant have any problems. You have to look happy all the time. Where we can only share happiness. But not sadness.

This is a way of Escapism.
Where i can say what want to say.


Hi,
I am Emily. Im wearing Red dress with a pair of long black socks.
You?